I had an interesting week.
I decided to be my own guinea pig and test out some special brownies.
I refuse to take anxiety medication anymore because it took a lot for me to get off of it many years ago.
Doctors hand it out like candy but the side effects were worse than me pulling my hair out.
I took an anti-anxiety, anti-depressant combo that would sedate me pretty much to the point that I was a walking zombie with night sweats.
Hardly a good wife and mother all vegged out.
I swore I would never ever go back to taking anything like that again.
Trying to get off was like getting exorcism.
I had withdrawals like I was trying to get off heroine.
I pretty much just deal with things now on my own.
I read a lot, I go to school, I do things to keep my mind off the anxious thoughts.
So, back to the special brownies!
I decided that I was going to give them a try because I was having an especially hard week.
I couldn’t sleep, my body was aching and I was just so anxious because my graduation and vacation is coming up next week.
I probably hadn’t slept a good nights sleep in awhile and the nightmares were just getting out of control.
So…. I took matters into my own hands like any desperate woman needing sleep and peace would…
I got one of these brownies from a local dispensary.
I’d never had special brownies before, I mean I always joked about them as a kid but never did I have one.
How was it?
It was like I was eating chocolate pot.
I can’t see myself wanting to eat a big old chocolate hunk of brownie like that all the time.
I ended up only eating half of it because it was 400mg of THC, which is a lot.
It took about two hours but I was feeling the effects of it pretty good.
I wasn’t all stupid high, but I was very relaxed.
For someone with high functioning anxiety, it was like the most amazing relaxation ever.
I didn’t have a care in the world and I slept like a rock!
I woke up a little wobbly and blurry eyed but it was the best nights sleep I think I’ve ever had, seriously.
I ate the other half the next day and same thing, a little less of an effect though.
I was definitely relaxed, not one single anxious though even crept in.
Too bad they cost $22 each!
In all seriousness though, I used to pay way more for my anxiety meds.
$22 is actually a steal compared to edibles at most places, that’s why I never buy them.
I once paid $22 for a batch of low carb cookies, they tasted like $hit and I didn’t relax or sleep well as a result.
Paying $22 for two good nights sleep after a month of tossing and turning with anxiety – WORTH IT!