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I Pull My Hair Out When Stressed – Thanks to an 85 Year Old Bully (Sorry Not Sorry)

April 19, 2017 By: Lesley

This past week has been one of the hardest ones..

At one point I wondered if I really did need to sedate myself.

I had that dental surgery I was talking about…

I had the pain meds to do it..

I probably would have but my stomach was already so messed up.

It’s been such a rough week. 🙁

My mother in law was in town, and I know I haven’t really discussed THIS PART of my life yet,

but now’s the time..

Anxiety levels rise when my mother in law is around me.

My mother in law is not nice to me.

That’s putting it nicely.

I can’t really say that to anyone because they all jump to protect her like she’s made of glass or something?

But I’m allowed to have feelings and my feelings say, she’s mean, at least to me.

My father in law passed away almost two years ago and she just seemed to get more mean towards me.

While she was in town, she praised my huband’s ex wife at my sons ball game.

Now I like my husband’s ex wife, we all get along fine.

It’s not her.

It’s how my mother in law treats her like gold and me like cheap plastic.why do i pull out my hair when stressed

She told her how much she missed her at her birthday party. 

She told her how wonderful she always smelled.

She told her how she would always be her daughter.

She told me I look tired.

But yea, I’m supposed to be okay with that?

My mom treats my husband like gold.

She bakes him cookies and cans him special jams.

My mom has her faults like anyone, but she’s a damn good mother in law.

I am feeling jipped.

I’ve been with my husband 15 years, this isn’t new, it’s just worse than it ever has been.

And I actually do like his ex wife, but it hurts that she says those things to her knowing she doesn’t say them to me, ever.

I’ve gotten to the point I’m just reclusive and stand offish now.

From everyone.

Who wants to be constantly picked at?

If I say something, I get the whole “she really does love me speech”

But who does that to someone they love?Drama Shield Activate. Bluntcards. Bluntcard. Magnet

That’s not cool.

I stay silent now for the most.

I go walk off by myself or talk to someone else.

Honestly, my heart is not to be this way but every single dig at me hurts so bad and if you have Trich, you know how much words hurt!!

She says things under her breath CONSTANTLY!

Then tells others I don’t like her… say what??

I never say a word.

How is it that I don’t like you woman?

i pull my hair stressedHow do you combat crazy?

You can’t.

I would confront her in love but I have no common ground with her.

That’s enough to make you pull your hair out right there, even if you don’t have trichotillomania!

It’s like I’m trapped.

My family loves her and she hates me but I can’t say anything because she denies it…

It’s like I’m in some sort of episode of Twilight Zone when she’s around.

I pull my hair out stressed like crazy because I seriously have no clue what to do!

I don’t want fight with my husband.

I don’t want to say anything mean to an old lady.

It’s really enough to make anyone pull their hair out really.

Now, she was only down for a short time and I’m SO GLAD she’s gone.

I know that sucks to say, especially because I love my husband so much and I know he loves his mom.

But dang, I am so happy when she leaves.

I was biting my nails, yanking my hair out and crapping myself that last day .. TMI?

Then There Was My Work Week!

Not easy to say the least.

I found a terrible service was being used to basically scrape my internet content.

That sucked.

Darkness always comes into light though.

I was happy I found out about it but it was stressful on top of the mom-in-law nonsense happening too

and did I mention I had dental surgery?

It’s hard to feel this way.

Here on one hand, I love my husband, kids and extended family, who wants to fight with their mom or grandma?

I am so non confrontational by nature, I really don’t like it.

I get so stressed that it makes me pull my hair out.

I can’t say much to anyone around me, its my only release sometimes…

…well that and this blog..

At least I realize it’s stressed induced and I’m starting to see the patterns of stress..

I mean who wouldn’t be stressed in that situation?

What would you do if you were me?

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    • At one point I wondered if I really did need to sedate myself.
    • My mother in law is not nice to me.
    • I’ve been with my husband 15 years, this isn’t new, it’s just worse than it ever has been.
    • Who wants to be constantly picked at?
    • I pull my hair out stressed like crazy because I seriously have no clue what to do!
    • Then There Was My Work Week!
    • That sucked.
    • I get so stressed that it makes me pull my hair out.
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I am not a medical professional, just a blogger.

Disclosure:  I am not a doctor, health professional or your mother.  I am a blogger who talks about her experiences with a hair-pulling disorder and the things that have helped me try to overcome it.   None of the methods or products talked about are intended to cure anything.  None of the methods or products are intended to replace your medications or treatments.   You must take responsibility for your own health and actions and nothing here is meant to treat or diagnose anyone or anything.  I am just a blogger, if you have questions about your physical or mental health, it’s best to seek professional help.

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About Lesley

My name is Lesley and I have been battling a hair pulling disorder my entire life.  I'm Jesus obsessed and I'm currently writing through my journey here on this blog.  I hold an Associate in Theology and I've written a faith-based trichotillomania therapy journal for people with this hair pulling disoder.  You can read a lot more about me on the home page and I have a private group on Facebook where you can find other like-minded people who understand what it's like to have trich.

Comments

  1. Rhonda says

    April 23, 2017 at 4:52 am

    Lesley, I just came across your blog and I have been pulling my hair out since the fall. My new habit is stress related, I am a SAHM….1)husband with ADD/OCD/body dismorphia. 2) preschooler w/ Autism 3) toddler w/ super human scream fits. And last but not least 4) MIL….passive aggressive/ manipulative/ADD/anxiety/controlling…etc!
    I don’t know what has happened to me! I found myself pulling out hair all the time. I’m constantly vacuuming because of piles of hair balls. I’ve avoided my MIL for about 2 months until Easter, when she asked if I cut my hair!!!! Thinking about a therapist. Rhonda

  2. Lesley says

    April 26, 2017 at 5:47 pm

    Hi Rhonda!

    Thanks so much for leaving me comment, I honestly thought I was alone on the internet for awhile here.

    Life is stressful enough without the added bonus of a MIL who can’t be nice.

    I have a 6 month old baby and a preschooler and it’s rough, no joke, if I didn’t have a really good support system at school and church I would have cracked up by now for sure.

    You know, the thing about seeking help is okay, but avoid drugs at all costs, they really do seem to have more side effects than good effects if you know what I mean. And then it really just masks it, it really doesn’t go away with those drugs.

    I think for me, finding the area where I’m not trusting the Lord is going to be the key. I hope you find your key too. Thank you so much for reaching out, that really means so much to me.

    P.S. My sister in law asked if me if I cut my hair at a baseball game, I said “no” and she told me “yes you did!!” … well, no, I didn’t, I pulled it out (but I didn’t say that because they don’t know). It’s real, I feel you!! I do.

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