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Another little dirty habit I have is sucking my thumb.
I’ve sucked my thumb so long that it’s actually shaped differently than your average human thumb.
It’s called a dwarf thumb..
My thumb was the thing that kids teased the most about in high school.
It’s a huge insecurity for me because most people notice it.
I don’t have fancy hands, that’s for sure.
I won’t be doing hand commercials anytime soon..
One thing I’m not sure about is whether my thumb was born this way or I sucked it this way lol
I mean it looks like a toe, I know, I get it.
The roof of my mouth is actually indented higher up than a normal mouth would be from sucking all my life.
Obviously I bite my nails, what little nail I have on that dwarf thumb of mine.
Sucking my thumb and pulling my hair go hand-in-hand, or should I say hand-and-head?
If I’m sucking my thumb, I can almost guarantee you I am twisting and pulling my hair.
I don’t just pull my hair, I actually go through the motion of twisting it all up too… I know, fancy right?
I looooooooove twisting my hair almost as much as the pulling of it.
Both are certainly very SELF SOOTHING!
I catch myself doing it and I literally have the most bizzare conflict going on inside me..
Half of me wants to stop and is scolding myself and the other half is so soothed by it that I can’t possibly want to really stop..could I?
I’m mentally split in two when I do it…
What 36 year old woman wants to suck her thumb and pull her hair?
I mean I really don’t, but I do, I really do!
and there you go…
I’ve tried fidget toys but the truth is, they’re not self soothing for me.
The time I suck my thumb and twist my hair the most is when I’m tired, so fidget toys are the last thing I want..
I really like it and I don’t know how to fall asleep without doing it?
Know a Thumb Sucker?
I can tell you what not to do…
I can remember being younger and every adult that caught me doing it would just tell me to stop it…or worse slap my hand out of my mouth!
I’m an adult now, so no one is slapping my hand out of my mouth..
My husband is super sweet about it, he never says a word.
I honestly can’t remember him ever saying a word about it unless it was brought up by me.
He’s a good guy that way, he knows how to handle my insecurities.
It’s just one of many BFRB’s that I’m dealing with.