The first of the year I said I was believing for an abundance of blessings this year and I like to write these things down so I can reflect back on them!
The 2018 year of abundance started out in a lull.. not much happening but I walk by faith and not by sight.
I can finally see the clouds breaking up and that abundant sunshine coming in!
In the last month a lot of great things have been happening in my life that I’m excited to share.
NAC is Helping My Hair Pulling Disorder
After about 9 weeks, I definitely started noticing that the urge to pull my hair was significantly reduced.
It’s a bit hard to describe other than the urge isn’t there as much now.
If I get really tired though, that seems to trigger it still.
Sleep is so important and I don’t get enough right now.
I need to believe for an abundance of sleep this year I suppose?
Even with the terrible sleep I’m getting lately, I have still managed to stay pull-free.
May there be an abundance of hair growth this year in addition to the other blessings I’m seeing!
My Real Dad Wrote me
If you’ve been following this blog for awhile you know that my dad abandoning me is pretty much where all this started.
I was only a little girl when he picked up and left my mom and I and it was that event that really led to a lot of other bad things happening.
I don’t blame him, but I would be doing myself a huge dis-service if I didn’t at least knowledge that my dad leaving was a traumatic event in my childhood that led to hair pulling.
Not everyone knows the cause of their trichotillomania, but I do.
I’ve seen my dad a couple of times since he left but he never really stays in touch, last time I heard from him was 7 years ago.
Before that it had been about 30+ years since I remember seeing him.
But…God, in His grace knew that I really wanted closure in this area.
God gives us the desires of our heart when we’re ready to receive them and He’s done this so many times in my life that I can’t help but recognize that He’s doing it again!
I got a message from a woman on Facebook a couple weeks ago.
She said she was my dad’s girlfriend and was wondering if she could have my address and phone number since they had moved to the same state as me!
It took me a day to process what she was saying because I haven’t heard anything about my dad in years.
I confirmed through a close relative that she was in fact his girlfriend so I gave her the address.
Last week, I received a card in the mail from him!
He said he would come to visit in June, which is when I’m also graduating from bible school.
I really didn’t plan to invite anyone to the graduation but I decided to invite him and he said he was coming!
Only God can do that.
Graduation in 2 Months!
I can’t believe it but I’m so ready for it to happen!
I graduate the first weekend of June!
I will have my associates degree in theology and some other certificates to do “stuff”
I really don’t know, I think I can marry people and other things ministers do. 👰🤵
I really went to bible school to learn the bible for myself.
No one really needs bible school to learn the bible, I actually learn a lot more watching Joseph Prince than I do at a bible school sometimes.
The Holy Spirit is your bible school, as long as you’re in the bible, you are at school and He is your teacher, amen.
But I wanted to go, that was my choice but I’m totally ready for it to end because I don’t have time for reading my own books because I have to read school books.
I have this stack of books on my reading list for when I graduate!
Going to 2018 BFRB Conference
In exactly a month I am flying to San Francisco to speak at the BFRB conference!
I’m definitely feeling the pressure of it now that it’s so close but I’m letting go and letting God handle it through me.
My plane ticket and hotel are booked.
The hardest part of this for me is leaving my family behind.
I already miss them like crazy and I haven’t even left yet.
I’m going to be speaking in front of a couple hundred people, that’s a little insane to think about, but I trust the Holy Spirit to do His work through me.
I don’t know what is going to come of this conference but it’s very exciting to be a part of it.
Related: 2018 BFRB Conference, How Was It?
My Business Has Improved
If you remember, my biggest trichotillomania trigger is my business.
I’m the the sole supporter of my family and sometimes that alone is enough pressure to make me want to pull my hair out.
It didn’t look good for awhile there but I know that God is my provider and He’s always managed to make my business flourish at just the right time.
While the first 2 months were not looking any better, the year of Abundance is swinging in my favor because I’m seeing an increase!
If I had been looking at natural circumstances the first 2 months of this year, I don’t think I would have stayed hopeful about 2018 being a year of abundance but I’m not looking to what I can do in my own ability, but what God is going to do in His.
I believe this year is only going to increase in abundance in all areas of my life and it’s only SPRINGING forth right now in March!